Today, it took me 47 minutes. Ridiculous. I know why, of course. The weekend. I PIGGED OUT. Not in a nice way.
On Saturday night, we had May's official birthday party.
Happy birthday, May!
And there, right in that picture, you see two parts of the problem I had at the gym this morning. I probably shouldn't have had a gin and tonic, a cheese croquette, a prawn croquette, a lemonade, a steak, bearnaise sauce, fries, and then, to top it all off, and because I am a moron, two (2!) pancakes with two (2!) scoops of ice cream and chocolate sauce.
I knew it wasn't a good idea at the time. And yet I didn't need that much persuading to have the pancakes. I really don't know why I do that every time. Afterwards, I woke up in the middle of the night and actually vomited into my mouth a little. Which was completely unnecessary.
Then yesterday, I was behaving really rather well all day, until I had both this:
and this:
while watching TV at night.
I'm really beating myself up about this. The self-loathing is having a good day.
I should try to focus on the positives here. I could have had beer as well last night, and I didn't. I stopped after half a bag of crisps. (The other half is shouting at me from the kitchen to come and eat it.) And I worked out for more than an hour and a half.
Still, it's just not a very nice thing to do to my own body. I shall cook something nice and healthy tonight perhaps. If I can be bothered. What tastes nice after a starter of crisps and beer?
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I love that 'perhaps' at the end...giving yourself an out! I love it!
ReplyDeleteMmmm pancakes. I want some now. Gee, thanks!
Now I am super hungry! I have not been able to eat "bad" for awhile because of my gallbladder and i am craving- wel all of what you mentioned. Weel worth some extra time at the gym.
ReplyDeleteHow funny - I had one of those chocolate ice creams too today - it looks like a Feast - one of those with extra chocolate inside - oooh just delicious!! Now don't beat yourself up - hey at least you did some exercise!! I totally know what you mean though and I know how you feel. But it was a special occasion, so let yourself enjoy it and recover in the week x
ReplyDelete@Christy - I cooked semi-healthily. Pasta with veggies, but also with a cream cheese sauce. It'll do.
ReplyDelete@mountainmomma - I've been superhungry all week. I sympathise with your problem. A good friend of mine has to have hers out after she pops her next sprog. Is your problem going to be fixed? I hope so for you, because sometimes ice cream is just necessary.
@Maternal Tales - Welcome! It is not a Feast. It has praline ice cream inside. It's too good. I gave the last one to my son earlier, just so I wouldn't eat it tonight.
You know, it's funny that mountainmamma brought up gall bladders because knowing what a gall bladder attack after eating bad-for-me-food feels like, I have found it much easier to eat properly. Over the years (and it has taken years) I have learned which foods are mine to eat and which are not. Almost every health problem associated with aging can be at least controlled by diet- and always the same diet- whole grains, vegetables, low-fat protein and dairy, etc. And I have learned that those are my foods while things like potato chips and burgers and fatty sauces are NOT my foods.
ReplyDeleteIt has become second nature and not difficult at all.
But, like I said, it's taken a long time.
And you know what? Exercise is SO important and you are doing that.
Uhmhmm... I am having beer for dinner RIGHT NOW.
ReplyDeleteoops.
Oh I've so been having a day or 5 like this one. I find once I indulge once or twice, it's really hard to get back into my good eating habits - I just keep convincing myself one little snack won't hurt. Nor will another an hour later, and so on. But, that dinner sounded fabulous. We need to indulge ourselves every now and then. And the fact is you went right back to the gym afterward, so good on you!
ReplyDeleteWhat tastes nice after a starter of crisps and beer?
ReplyDeleteMore crisps and beer!!
i reckon 40 degree heat is the best diet remedy- all i want to do at the moment is lie very still and suck icy gazpacho through a straw....
ReplyDelete@Ms. Moon - I know all these things, and most of the time I manage. I'm just not finding it easy yet. More practice, I suppose. The exercise does help a lot. I'm thinking of going for a cycle ride with the kids today or tomorrow.
ReplyDelete@Maggie May - Mmmm. Beer!
@Lady Mama - I know, the habit is hard to break. Last night, after dinner, I had two sandwiches with eggs and bacon. This has to stop. But it's all so nice. And I think my body is obviously craving stuff. I should probably look at what I'm eating throughout the day on this diet. Perhaps I'm not getting what I need.
@SandyCalico - You are very right. Absolutely.
@Screamish - Oof - too hot. But surely mojitos would seem tempting?
ICE CREAM comes next!!! cleanses the palate after chips and beer.
ReplyDelete@geeksinrome - You are right! Why didn't I think of that?
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