So I had one of THOSE days. No, actually, yesterday was one of THOSE days. Today was just one of those days.
Yesterday, I was all tears and ETERNAL DESPAIR and more tears and then lots of pretense because I had a concert to sing and a concert of Jack's to applaud.
Then today - milder despair but despair nonetheless and I always think it's NEVER GOING TO END. Ever. Luckily the children had school and creche so I could pull out the phones and just hide under my blanket.
This evening I finally decided to see what you'd all been up to and I switched on the computer. And now the despair is sadness. And I know there's an end to it. And I know just to wait until it ends. Because this just happens sometimes. My confidence gets knocked, and all the self-esteem I've been building up just vanishes. It takes a while to find it again. I visited all my usual blogs (I didn't comment much - give me a few days) and it's like I've visited a whole lot of dear friends. Because I have.
And now I need some sleep. Tomorrow I will climb out of this hole a little more. And I will remember: my eternal despair never lasts as long as forever.