I'm lucky to have a husband who understands and will feed the children their dessert (I lasted all the way through dinner - yay me) and put them to bed. Even though he didn't quite get how bad I am today, because he did ask me to put Marie in her pyjamas, which ended with both of us in tears. Still not quite sure how that happened. I was trying to be patient.
I don't know what's going on. No doubt it's hormones, and fatigue, and pregnancy. Also the fact that the house is a tip and nothing's ready for the baby. And the fact that everyone's been telling me I'm so FAT. Which I know they wouldn't tell me if I was generally obese. I know they mean only my belly which is meant to be growing, but it got to me too much, and I just can't enjoy food any more so in the past month I have put on NO WEIGHT and now I'm feeling all guilty about that. The next person who tells me I "must be carrying twins" or "that must be for any day now" or "pull your stomach in" is getting punched in the nose. Actually, more likely they will get to see me dissolve into tears and then run away. But I can fantasize about punching them, right?
I'm going to bed. Safest place when I feel like this. Because I will say or do something I regret if I stay around people just now.
Oh, and I hate
- The World Cup (for reducing the number of comforting shows on TV)
- Wimbledon (idem)
- rain
- duvets that shed tiny feathers
- children who shout
- everything really.
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And now breathe! Definitely the best place for you in bed. Hope Babes doesn't get the fruit and icecream thrown over him!
ReplyDeleteI like Wimbledon.
ReplyDeleteBut Inever get to watch it because I have children.
Pull your stomach in? WTF???? I think a punch in the face is definitely in order. The nerve.
Can you hear a heavenly choir of boomtown rats warbling "I don't like Mondays" (among other things) in the background? Perhaps the reference is too ancient for you to remember.
ReplyDeleteBut you do remember that lovely post about building family, right? Hang onto it.
So annoying when people think they can make personal remarks just because you're pregnant. Makes me mad too and I'm not even pregnant at the moment. Hope that lie-down is helping.
ReplyDeletehmmm yes I completely feel what your going through. I'm only just 5 months with my second, and people keep commenting on how big I look already. They ask how long I have to go-people only ask that when they think it's any day now!
ReplyDeleteI'm terrified as I put on 4.5 stone with madam E-that was more than half my original weight and I started off a stone heavier with this one-eek!!
When I'm pregnant I always feel like making a t-shirt to tell people what I think/feel.due date etc so they don't ask. Last time would of been 'I know I look 15, but don't stare at me like I'm crap, I have 2 degrees already and I'm 21. I'm the one who will be laughing when I'm 40 looking 30'.
This time it's 'Yes my body hates me, and hates pregnancy more. I'm 5ft 0 so my baby has to fit somewhere. P.S, food clings to me for dear life'
When I was pregnant with Lily I DID cry when the fiftieth person asked me if I was carrying twins. Right there. I cried.
ReplyDeleteOh baby. This too shall pass.
Ah Mwa. I'm here for you. I was having one of those days, too. Not as bad as yours was. Sounds like the mean reds to me. Bed is the best place and then we'll all be there for you tomorrow...and the next day....and the next.
ReplyDeleteWhen I was pregnant someone told me that I was walking like an emperor penguin and so I must be due any day. I wanted to slug him but didn't have the energy. Hope an early night was the answer and that the fruit and ice cream was delivered.
ReplyDeleteWhen I was pregnant with No1 my husband left me (I took him back). When I was pregnant with No2 my husband left me (I packed his bag). He said to me more than once "You change when you're pregnant". I replied "Of course I fucking do I AM GROWING A FUCKING PERSON!". Enjoy the ice-cream - you are growing a person :)
ReplyDeleteBless your heart! I have those days and I don't have anything tangible to blame them on! I hope you feel better soon.
ReplyDeleteIt wasn't the getting bigger comments that got to me it was the fact that people knew I'd had sex! How irrational and puritanical is that!?!?
ReplyDeleteI'd been married 4 years by then...LOL!
Ah, you should say something along the lines of 'well, I am pregnant, whereas you will still be weight-obsessed in the morning'....
ReplyDeleteHope tomorrow is better. The rain may be shit, but on the plus side, you could be here in 90 degree heat, and then being pregnant would really suck.
If anyone tells you you're fat I think you should slap them hard, and then blame the pregnancy hormones. You can blame it for so much! Hope tomorrow is better.
ReplyDeleteSometimes I feel like I should just make up a sign that says "For your own safety, don't:
ReplyDelete- Talk to me
- Look at me
- Smile at me
"
(leave space at the bottom to pencil in things as necessary) and hang it around my neck.
excuse me? what kind of person tells a pregnat women to "suck her belly in"???? i mean..not even i would do that and i would do most of anything what shouldnt be done:-/
ReplyDeleteso...fruit and icecream as much as you want...dont care what they say...
@Victoria - He didn't. He did try to dissuade me from having TWO ice cream sundaes but he failed.
ReplyDelete@Jo - Wimbledon is fine, as long as it's the final and there's a Belgian in it, or perhaps Federer vs. Nadal. Otherwise zzzzzzzzzzzz.
@Pueblo girl - Not too ancient. Boomtown Rats very big in Belgium as well.
@Emily O - I know! The lie-down did help. CSI Miami and lots of sleep.
@A Muse Inner Me - I feel bad for you too now. We can whinge to each other.
@Ms. Moon - I am SO close to doing that. But then today seems a lot better already. Something to do with naps and more sleep. And ice cream.
@Aden Meyler - Thank you! That is such a sweet comment.
@Calif Lorna - Fruit and ice cream were delivered - and absolutely delicious. The penguin remark is just cruel. I've only been told I "waddle."
@MrsW - I think you win. Bloody hell! How did you manage to get through that? I was already a fan, but now I know you can do anything.
@Debbie - Surely there's always something? PMS, period, being a woman, the position of the stars? There is always an excuse.
@Countess - That is too funny. Even though my mother got very uncomfortable when I told her we made this baby on a trip she gifted us. TMI for her. :-)
@nappy valley girl - It's getting hotter every second here. I think it'll be a scorcher by the end of the week. But I think I will just fill the paddling pool and go lie in it.
@Lady Mama - I think I might! And it is, very much, thank you.
@Megan - We should do a double sign and go sit behind it together and sulk.
@Danielle - :-) I won't say because I don't want to say bad things about my friends/family on here, but let's just leave it at "a close relative."
I did have lots of fruit and icecream and LOVED it! The upside of not putting on any weight for a while is complete guilt-free eating for a few days. All for the good of baby, of course.
First: I'm sure you are gorgeous
ReplyDeleteB: punch in the nose, THEN dissolve into tears
Finally: ice cream works wonders. these days my ice cream drug of choice is butter pecan with hot fudge. double scoop. works wonders
xoxoxo
I vote punching. And if not, call me and I'll happily punch them for you. Assholes. How about telling them "look, unless you are about to push something huge out of your vagina, I don't want to hear this shit, a'ight?" - you have to end with a getto slang word so they think you might go all gangsta on their ass. And they'd deserve it, too.
ReplyDeleteI love you, monster and all.
ReplyDeleteI am sending you love. I have felt this way often and it's so great to have a loving partner who can be there for you. I about killed people when I was pregnant with my first, so I can't even imagine feeling that way and still having to take care of other beings as well. Sleep and feel better. Let others take care of you and feel free to punch anyone who says any of those mean things...ARE THEY STUPID? You never mess with a pregnant lady!!! You are superwoman!
ReplyDeleteI know I am late getting here, but I hope you feel better.
ReplyDeleteSometimes it takes me days to catch up on reading blogs. And I have no idea how to read stats for myself.
I think pregnant women are entitled to punch people, just because.
@michelle - I've never actually punched anyone. Can you believe that? I suppose now is the ideal time to try it out - I have good mitigating circumstances.
ReplyDelete@Elisa - Oh, the huge thing and the vagina. I was trying to forget about that part. :-)
@Kori - Oh, you... That makes my day.
@Kate - Thanks. I'm trying to do the sleeping.
@GingerB - Yeah, I'm going to try that on the authorities. I punched him - just because. Can't you see I'm pregnant?
You need the fruit and icecream.
ReplyDeleteI think they have an unofficial law allowing pregnant women to punch anyone who asks them to "pull their stomach in".
I actually had colleagues who told me I looked fat when I was pregnant, even though I was thinner than them, except for my tummy! People can be insensitive.
Oh lovely bless you - what horrid people to make comments like that, sounds like you'd be doing the world a service by hitting them if they do say something like that again...
ReplyDeleteHope things are going better and you're getting a bit of a break. Pregnancy with other children is the pits
The first time I was pregnant everyone told me I was glowing. This time around nobody has said one nice thing about the way I look.
ReplyDeleteThat's because this time around I'm glowering rather than glowing and the bastards daren't say a fucking word.
I find a permanent scowl/ schizophrenic stare helps.
Acceptance is the key thing here.
Accept that you are fat.
Accept that everyone who actually tells you that to your chubby face, is an arsehole.